6 weeks 2 days PREGNANT

I can't get over saying it, PREGNANT! Pregnant, we are pregnant!

We have a heartbeat!!!! 119 bpm. <3

6 weeks 2 days

5 weeks 3 days!

Yesterday we had our first ultrasound. We saw a sac and yolk!!!! Sooo exciting! We were measuring 5 weeks 2 days but the nurse seemed not to worry. Our next ultrasound is next week. I pray we see a fetal pole and heartbeat.

5 weeks 3 days

Unofficial due date...

FET #2 15dp5dt eSet Beta #2

2400! Nice doubling time. One more beta in two days. Ahhh

FET #2 13dp5dt eSet Beta Day

Whelp, today is the day. I feel cautiously optimistic and very nervous. I am trying not to get excited but it's hard. We got this in the middle of the night:

12.5dp5dt

Progression :

We know we are no where out of the woods. I believe the changes of miscarriage decrease from 10-15% to 3% by the 7th week. We haven't made it to 5 weeks yet. Last FET we didn't even make it this far before we know it was a chem pregnancy. So I am hopeful!  Really hope they call before 5 today, I'm going nutts. I can't work!




Update: results are in..... We are PREGNANT! Beta was 938 13dp5dt.  Nurse said anything >500 is what they were looking for:)

12dp5dt eSet

Well one more day until beta. I was supposed to have my beta 14dp5dt but I asked for a day earlier.

So very nervous. I just want to know already. So terrified of another chemical pregnancy. And to top it all off. I was just informed that my husbands ex wife had her baby the same day as our transfer. It would really hurt that much more if we had another chemical pregnancy/miscarriage.  Please God make this a healthy viable pregnancy. I have huge doubts about it being a successful pregnancy though:(. I really want to run to the nearest drug store and pick up a test but I'm even scared of that. What if it shows positive still , we get our hopes up and our beta is very low.  Why is this so hard. This fertility crap takes the excitement out of a positive tests. Always worrying about the next hurdle we have to fast. We just want a healthy child already :(.

I did yet again 9dp5dt and it was slightly darker than 6dp5dt but it in no way means we are in the clear. Last time I tested 12dp5dt and my lines were faint again. That would be today, for this cycle. Did I mention how nervous I am? Gahhhhhh!

 We started looking into moving. Holy cow I had no idea how much it costs in realtor fees/closing costs. Well that put a damper on our moving plans. Any money we have is going to Fertility treatments. It's so not fair. I am usually a very optimistic person but after the chem pregnancy I have become a little less hopeful :(.

"Just Relex" -- just STFU

Bitchy mood today. If someone else tells me to just relax and stay positive I'm going to snap. I didn't know I couldn't address my concerns without hearing the obvious! Gahhh people that haven't gone through infertility have NO clue what it's like when you invest to much time, emotion, and money into a child that you want more than anything!


End rant.

Sorry I am in rare form today. Maybe a chick fil a milk shake will help;)